It's taking a toll...

I'm halfway through the semester and I've learned one thing:
I'm not cut out for sixteen credits, outside stress, and an increase of church activities all in one.

I've taken on way too much, and to think I need a job on top of that. I'm falling behind in my classes, because I lack even an ounce of motivation. Next semester, I won't make the mistake I've made with this one. I'll back down to regular full-time or even part-time. More importantly, I need to pick up my praying and seek what God wants me to do, not try to do things on my own time table.

I hate that my blog entries are so down lately, it seems like at this time of year I'm in a constant battle with myself...I want to be happy, because it's fall, it's coming up to my favorite holidays, and church stuff picks up, but at the same time I'm usually the most stressed with school, and today the 19th of October makes 8 years since my daddy died. I miss him SO much, and this year the pain seems even worse because there's been so many things I want his opinion on, or to ask him about because I don't even know where to begin to find the answers.

Hopefully, I'll get back to my happy self and be able to post something more lighthearted soon :)